Spent my whole life deciding

On what I wanna do

So why am I feeling like this

I swear I thought I knew

My eggs are in the basket

My chips spilled on the floor

I tried to bribe the dealer

But he won't give me no more

I stole some from the others

And booked it for the door

They took me down

And spit me out

To where I was before

It was a stupid reason

To let it hold me back

I know it hurts your feelings

To hear me talk like that

Not here to make excuses

For what it is I lack

Just tired of feeling useless

Fuck, I'm so good at that

Spent my whole life deciding

On what I wanna do

So why am I feeling like this

Like I can barely move?

Try suffering in silence

The weight would bury you

Trust me I'm tryna like it

I swear I thought I knew

I'm not one for power trips

But I know I'd trade it all for this

I was blind to have faith in roads I picked

Now I'm dying to see the end

And I tried to be the one you needed

I was trying to be something rare

Tell me how to make you feel like he did

God, it hurts to be so unaware

It was a miscalculation

An unfit generation

In a shit situation

With our lives all fueled by big corporations

To give means for creation

That demands innovation

Guess I had no chance from the start

Got stabbed through the heart

They ripped me apart

By spending my youth telling me I was smart

Dissuading my art

In favor of charts and graphs

And corporate plaques

No regard

I do not follow the path

Watch me say no to the cash

You give it and I'll give it back

Can't beat me in soul that you lack, yeah

This shit is a lot to unpack

The odds will forever be stacked

Don't tell me the code can't be cracked

'Cause this shit is all that I have

I do not follow the path (and I tried to be the one you needed)

Watch me say no to the cash

You give it and I'll give it back (I was trying to be something rare)

Can't beat me in soul that you lack, yeah

This shit is a lot to unpack (tell me how to make you feel like he did)

The odds will forever be stacked

Don't tell me the code can't be cracked (God, it hurts to be so unaware)

'Cause this shit is all that I have

I do not follow the path (and I tried to be the one you needed)

Watch me say no to the cash (spent my whole life deciding)

You give it and I'll give it back (I was trying to be something rare)

Can't beat me in soul that you lack, yeah (on what I wanna do)

This shit is a lot to unpack (tell me how to make you feel like he did)

The odds will forever be stacked (so why am I feeling like this?)

Don't tell me the code can't be cracked (God, it hurts to be so unaware)

'Cause this shit is all that I have (like I can barely move)

I do not follow the path (and I tried to be the one you needed)

Watch me say no to the cash (try suffering in silence)

You give it and I'll give it back (I was trying to be something rare)

Can't beat me in soul that you lack, yeah (the weight would bury you)

This shit is a lot to unpack (tell me how to make you feel like he did)

The odds will forever be stacked (trust me I'm trying to like it)

Don't tell me the code can't be cracked (God, it hurts to be so unaware)

'Cause this shit is all that I have (I swear I thought I knew)

Spent my whole life deciding

On what I wanna do

So why am I feeling like this

Like I can barely move?

Try suffering in silence

The weight would bury you

Trust me I'm tryna like it

I swear I thought I knew