Lost

Who am I?

Who am I really?

I mean, half the time, I don't even know

I get lost and I don't know which way to turn

Throwing water on these bridges, I refuse to let them burn

What I'm doing, where I'm going, it's none of your concern

I'm comfortable in chaos when the tragedy occurs

Remain motivated 'cause I'm doing this for her and him

It's in the swim, so I'm facing it with courage

Stand strong 'til the meeting is adjourned

That dose of reality's getting served in a fatal shot

Showing all my cards as I place them on the tabletop

I mean really, I just wanna see my family smile

I'm doing what I have to, I won't slip, never panic now

Uttering confessions on my lungs, though I'm breathless

Get my point across from Aliquippa to Texas

'Til I'm run down, ragged and decrepit

As I'm climbing out the trenches while I'm battling depression (battling depression)

Let's be honest, this music is all I do

It's what I've always done, did regardless of my mood

The therapeutic value, I got everything to lose

See, I'm doing this for me before I'm doing this for you

No more coke and pills, I got new coping skills

I hear the compliments, we're witnessing the overkill

I'm not complaining and that increases my devotion

Also puts me in position where I'm speaking with emotion

But I'm only as good as the algorithm

While I focus on forgiving, I have never been a victim

Transparency is highly recommended

'Cause I refuse to ever leave my baggage unattended

What's foreign is that love and affection

I used to run and hide, I did it for my own protection

Embrace the emptiness, that void is enormous

Shortcomings coming, I feel the pressure and torment

Paying dues that end up costing me a fortune

But even when life gets ugly, it's still gorgeous

I'm an amateur, battling these heavyweights

Traveling the country, I've been to almost every state (almost every state)

Let it die, there's no need to resuscitate

Blessings on the way and they're approaching like my wedding date

I feel it in my gut when I follow God's guidance

I can't be quiet when I'm suffering in silence

Looking for direction, we're discussing it in private

When I'm paralyzed in fear, I put my trust into the pilot

Addiction hit me with them low blows, I fought back

I was frightened, left shaking like a snow globe

Doing what it takes for me to reach the next level

As I'm crack rock small off the flesh of the devil

I try to spread love, what I'm offering is pure

As I talk about my life to my esophagus and soul

How am I alive, living on the edge?

Meaning everything I say, every word I've ever said

Everyone has been through rough times

I'm not a tough guy, I just wanna touch lives

Be myself and never wander off the path

My gratitude is present when I ponder on the past

Even when I'm strugglin', it really isn't bad

'Cause I know you got my back and I don't even have to ask