In Red

It always ends with me

I search for peace in the chaos I've created

Regrets become friends, a bitter taste a bit to late

But in the aftermath, as the embers fade

I see the wreckage I am and the price I paid

It always ends with me

I've built a house but not a home and I drown in things in which others don't want to swim

With drinks and pills I can barely pronounce

How do you want to turn the lights off in a place that's always pitch black, unilluminated

I try to break a cycle but It always ends with me

It always ends with me

Words cut deep, memories of a whole decade, won't let me sleep

Im searching for an exit a way to break free

From this grip of anger that won't let go of me

Words unspoken emotions untamed, In the echoes of silence my soul is maimed

I try to break the cycle but it always ends with me

And every second, every minute that I'm not awake

Feels like relief from the chaos and the drugs I take

Demons inside me, they scream and they shout

A symphony of fury, drowning reason out

In the lyrics of my anger a story unfolds

A journey of healing as the darkness folds

Will I ever break the cycle and the role that I play

It always ends with me, It always ends with me

Nothing, no one can fix this, it always ends with

I will, move on and fix it

I am the end of me

I won't break

I won't break