21

I resent the flowers that your mom brought

For the kitchen counter

I resent the version of myself

You couldn't love forever

I regret the sculptures that I shaped

For you to think that I was great

Were you my syndicate

Or were we bound to separate? Mmm

Somethin' in the pink storm of the apartment

In the college dorm

Shaved my skin right from the muscle

Bled me dry then poured me a double

Asked if I could take it that much longer

Set your keys down on the counter

Did not impart much wisdom

The liquor dripped down in my system

Twenty-one, in the corner of my mind

Would've died for the antonym of blind

Would've, would've died

Twenty-one, what a stupid reckless age

All the happiness that you had waged

The happiness that you have had to wage

And everything that I now hate

Including what your eyes create

Do you think that you'd ever shell out

The benefit of the doubt?

If I'm the monster lurkin'

You're the one behind me smirkin'

Asked if you could take it that much longer

You left me with a silent offer

If you could leave unscathed

I'd bear the cost to separate

Twenty-one, in the corner of my mind

Wasn't old enough to see the signs

I couldn't if I tried

Twenty-one, were you waitin' to be saved?

All the peace you would procrastinate

All the peace that you would procrastinate

Tomorrow you'll clean the graveyard on the bedside space

And you'll go to bed real early

And you'll meditate

And you'll leave the party late

And you'll separate

And you'll think yourself deserving

And you'll liberate

And you'll get closer to thirty

And you'll resign your hate