Addiction (feat. Dom Savvy & Cazniac)

I war with thoughts every night

As I talk to myself and say no more

Cos I cant even cope with the pain im in

In remorse when I lie though I felt so sure

Cos ill do more and it takes the piss

Id see them man and the state they in

But I was taught thought that we aint the same

And that gage aint what theyve labelled him

Thats not the same brush that im painted with

But whats saddest

I see myself now im ashamed it makes me sick

And the real truth of that is

Even when im clean I will always be an addict

I drown in the demons

I thought I had tamed

Dumbfounded by feelings

That brought on the pain

Chasing a high but

Without conviction

Craving a fix but

Facing remission

I drown in the demons

I thought I had tamed

Dumbfounded by feelings

That brought on the pain

With hope came the dust

And neutral decisions

So escape is a must

Or I'll lose to addiction

I drown in the demons

I thought I had tamed

Dumbfounded by feelings

That brought on the pain

Chasing a high but

Without conviction

Craving a fix but

Facing remission

I drown in the demons

I thought I had tamed

Dumbfounded by feelings

That brought on the pain

With hope came the dust

And neutral decisions

So escape is a must

Or I'll lose to addiction

Say this the last time one last time but

The last time never lasts

Say this the last time one last time but

The last time never lasts

Say this the last time one last time but

The last time never lasts

Say this the last time one last time but

The last time will be your last

Current suspicion

So much for survival

Wont come to submission

In fucking denial

Disgusting depiction

Stubborn and spiteful

A dozen prescriptions

As one with the spiral

Now the circles vicious

Im moving dirt with lizards

Now im curtain twitching

Dipping into the purse of the mrs

Mood swings with no prediction

Thats addiction

Cravings too persistent

I never knew it would be

The noose of booze abuse my neck would fit in

Voices that im hearing

Keep them quiet

Never know who might be listening

I can feel my character begin to shift

Im splitting dont know why im different

Or why im imprisoned

By the lines of white im sniffing

This is not what I envisioned

I drown in the demons

I thought I had tamed

Dumbfounded by feelings

That brought on the pain

Chasing a high but

Without conviction

Craving a fix but

Facing remission

I drown in the demons

I thought I had tamed

Dumbfounded by feelings

That brought on the pain

With hope came the dust

And neutral decisions

So escape is a must

Or I'll lose to addiction

I drown in the demons

I thought I had tamed

Dumbfounded by feelings

That brought on the pain

Chasing a high but

Without conviction

Craving a fix but

Facing remission

I drown in the demons

I thought I had tamed

Dumbfounded by feelings

That brought on the pain

With hope came the dust

And neutral decisions

So escape is a must

Or I'll lose to addiction

Say this the last time one last time but

The last time never lasts

Say this the last time one last time but

The last time never lasts

Say this the last time one last time but

The last time never lasts

Say this the last time one last time but

The last time will be your last

Current suspicion

So much for survival

Wont come to submission

In fucking denial

Disgusting depiction

Stubborn and spiteful

Sudden restrictions

Stuck in a cycle

Stuck in my brain like an rival

Or stuck in my veins like a needle

Tainted disgust for my life so

I got no love for the steeple

They cant save me with a bible

They cant restore my cerebral

I cant seem to sit as an idol

But at least I stray from the evil

Im living my life faking a saint

Blatantly struck with affliction

It took away from my heart and my trust

So now I stand in confliction

Phasing away with the friction

Im fading away to attrition

My place in dismay as im waiting away

Im facing the face of addiction

I drown in the demons

I thought I had tamed

Dumbfounded by feelings

That brought on the pain

Chasing a high but

Without conviction

Craving a fix but

Facing remission

I drown in the demons

I thought I had tamed

Dumbfounded by feelings

That brought on the pain

With hope came the dust

And neutral decisions

So escape is a must

Or I'll lose to addiction

I drown in the demons

I thought I had tamed

Dumbfounded by feelings

That brought on the pain

Chasing a high but

Without conviction

Craving a fix but

Facing remission

I drown in the demons

I thought I had tamed

Dumbfounded by feelings

That brought on the pain

With hope came the dust

And neutral decisions

So escape is a must

Or I'll lose to addiction