Let Yourself Go

We identified, and we just laid low

Maybe a little more than we wanted to know

And here we are now, at the back of my place

Holding each other's hands, staring off into space

Yeah, there was something more that we wanted to hear

Like, all the tests came back, and you were in the clear

You took it on the chin with a trembling smile

But your eyes, they spoke a million miles

All of the memories now come flooding from the back of my head

And I'm waiting on you

Waiting for you to explode, and whether I should go run or defend

Why did you, why did you, why did you leave it all up to me?

To clean up your mess, I'm better off, I guess

If there's a reason, boy, I can't see

Through all the walls of the maze

I do the best to get out I can

Hold on, hold on

Take this with you before you let yourself go

Well, we packed your bags, a whole trailer load

You held out long as you could, but it was time to let go

And now our bedroom looks like your old place

I'm sleeping on the couch and staring off into space

And there's an image now I will never forget

Your friends waving goodbye the day you left

They were balancing tears on the rims of their eyes

I never witnessed beauty so rare in my life

And all of the memories now come flooding from the back of my head

And I'm waiting on you

Waiting for you to explode and whether I should go run or defend

But I can't choose

'Cause you're not a threat anymore, you're just faded ash in the sand

So sick and tired of living the fight or flight

It's more than anyone could withstand

Set me free, set me free, set me free

Only you, only you

Why did you leave it all up to me?

To clean up your mess, I'm better off, I guess

If there's a reason boy, I can't see

Through all the walls of the maze

I do the best to get out I can

Hold on, hold on

Take this with you before you let yourself go

Take this with you before you let yourself go

Take this with you before you let yourself go

Yeah, I blame it on you

I blame it on me

I blame it on the times of the rising seas

In the back of my head, the back of my heart

Breaking me down to the very start

Yes, you gave us your best, you gave us your worst

Sometimes, loving you felt like a curse

All the shame that I thought

Thought that I'd shed

Thinking it'd be easier, even if you were dead

Why did you, why did you, why did you leave it all up to me?

To clean up your mess, I'm better off, I guess

If there's a reason boy, I can't see

Through all the walls of the maze

I do the best to get out I can

Hold on, hold on

Hold on, hold on

Hold on