True Blue

Tommy

True blue, you was always true blue

And I always was true to the true blue

True blue, you was always true blue

And I always was true to the true blue

I tried to bite my tongue, I tried to bite my cum

I tried to bite it down and hold it deep within, like that shit wouldn't ooze out

Like who's out of the closet? She's not your typical cum deposit

Used to daydream, used to think my mind's eye was really blue

True blue, but it's brown, it's always been brown

Used to cry about it, why was I so much like my father?

Used to lie about it, bleach my hair and sigh about it

Channeling my inner me on the outside, still looking like you

How can I defend something I've never read?

How can I read you when your palms so sweaty?

They slip through my life, so ready to be ready to leave you

But I held on because I needed proof, yes, I loved you

But what I knew of love was something only my childhood could produce

I didn't know love, I knew abuse

So your love felt good to me and even when I think about you

I don't feel lonely, I don't want it back but I believe you

I believe you, I believed what you knew

And for that, I forgive you, I forgive you, I forgive what you knew

True blue, you was always true blue

And I always was true to the true blue

True blue, you was always true blue

And I always was true to the true blue

True blue, you was always true blue

And I always was true to the true blue

True blue, you was always true blue

And I always was true to the true blue

And I hope you know if there was a moment in time

I see you out, I hope you look lighter, I hope you feel stronger

If you fly, I'd wave you along, cheering my human brother

You've come broken out of the shell

Like a snake shedding the thick skin that only comes

With some thick sin, some big wings, and some chosen kin

Batter me with your battery, kiss on me with your olive branch

I'll do the dance to get my chance to let you go

To the point if we meet again, I've never met you before

And therefore, we're just strangers in a perfect storm

No longer connected, no longer unborn

And if we meet then, I don't want you

I just want you to know it's a beautiful thing

That we went in and out of eclipsing

True blue, you was always true blue

And I always was true to the true blue

True blue, you was always true blue

And I always was true to the true blue

True blue, you was always true blue

And I always was true to the true blue

True blue, you was always true blue

And I always was true to the true blue

True blue (True)

And I always was true

True blue (True)

And I always was true

In the car back from Coachella, you told me what I needed to know then

In my mind we were a novella, something forbidden that bent me back in

I had PTSD, I had anxiety attacks

I didn't know why when I saw her story, your shoes were in the corner of her laying back

It's one of those stories anyways

What really matters is that I shattered my perception to be close to you

So now I know something forever that I'll never do

When you're a little girl, they tell you you're in a little world

They spell you into a little word, but I'm not that little

I'm not that little, I'm not that little