I just wanna live and feel something

Or die from my misery

The words in my mind are a storm of madness

It all turns to malice

There's a fear inside me

That leaves me bloody

All I have is emptiness

A void that brings pain

It feels like dullness

A boring color

It's all a shade

Lost in the gray

Fueled by anger in the depths of despair

These thoughts like daggers that slice and tear

I just wanna live and feel something

Or die from my misery

I am so afraid that this is who I am and who I have always been

These voices whisper and drown my screams

Breaking the silence

Reclaim my mind

It feels like dullness

A boring color

It's all a shade

Lost in the gray

I'm always finding ways to dig my own grave

Always making the same mistakes

My world is empty

It's fucking cold

Why is this how it unfolds

I'd rather pull the fucking trigger