Something happened when I hit 30

Old habits never die, but they feel dirty

Inspiration when I try never feels worthy

Motivation ain't the same when I'm not hurting

I can't forgive myself for all the dirt that I did

But I'm still working on the person that was hurt as a kid

One thing's for certain, if you're searching

Then you're working to live

A better life, because existence is the perfect of gifts, uh

Is it wisdom that I've found now

Or is it something that I've drowned out

My heads too heavy for this crown now

The king of nothing's what I've found out

My enemies can get a roundhouse

A warrior till I'm in the ground now

I pour my soul into this sound, how

Could anybody still believe that I'm a lighthouse

Something happened when I hit 30

My desire for a family's now greater than this art working

And time don't ever stop turning

So you can either sit and watch it or exist without a clock jerking

Easier said than done, see better ones

Begin a journey but never make it to veteran

These setting suns, horizontal developments

The same position they'll all be in when it's said and done

Is it wisdom that I've found now

Or is it something that I've drowned out

My heads too heavy for this crown now

The king of nothing's what I've found out

My enemies can get a roundhouse

A warrior till I'm in the ground now

I pour my soul into this sound, how

Could anybody still believe that I'm a lighthouse

Ay

Something happened when I hit 30

The way I'm bouncing back, my springs are always rusted when they get dirty

I take more supplements to make up for the sustenance

My body's needing cause my switch is set to hurry

It's always set to hurry

It's like no matter what I do, a perfect life is out of view

A fucking lie that I've been sold so I don't feel worthy

And yet I keep it going longer cause I think that I'm a martyr

Could've been a better friend, could've been a better partner

Could've never did a trend, could've better helped my father

Could've saved all of the money spent on substances and fodder

But I'm learning

Something happened when I hit 30

Don't give a fuck about opinions from you posers on a different journey

Still wish success and give my best

But love my time away from everybody

Don't fuck with anybody

If you don't benefit my life, you'll never get my time

I'd rather kill myself than live for anyone that doesn't love me