You ask me what I'm feeling like there's language I should know

As if my heart's a radio with words in every glow

But inside it's just a static field of colors without names

I see your hurt reflected but I can't describe the flames

I freeze under your questions I shrug and say I'm fine

You hear it as indifference think I left you far behind

But fine is just a placeholder for a map I never learned

The compass spins the needle breaks the legend's all but burned

I'm not cold I'm not cruel I'm just lost without a chart

I feel the weight I see the waves I just can't pull it apart

If I hand you tangled wires can you help me trace them through

Name the storms inside my body turn the chaos into truth

We're parallel lines running side by side

You speak in oceans I speak in quiet tide

If I can't say I'm breaking will you read between the signs

Hold my shaking silence like your hand in mine?

I write it in a notebook little symbols little swirls

Heart rate graphs and headaches how the sunlight makes me curl

I point to all the patterns but the words still won't come out

You think I'm dodging honesty that I'm writhing in my doubt

You cry that I don't trust you with the shadows in my chest

I wish that I could pour it out articulate this mess

But the feelings crash like thunder with no lightning to define

I only know I'm hurting when I see that you're not fine

Don't measure me in speeches in romantic monologues

Measure me in staying when the road is made of fog

If I show up when it's heavy even quiet even blind

Know my presence is an answer that my words can't ever find

We're parallel lines running side by side

You speak in oceans I speak in quiet tide

If I can't say I'm breaking will you read between the signs

Hold my shaking silence like your hand in mine?

Teach me how to color-code your fears and your desires

Give me scripts for I am scared and I'm walking through the fire

I'll tape them to the mirror 'til they're etched into my skin

I'll practice I am angry 'til I recognize it in

I feel more than I can say

Don't let the silence tear us away

We're parallel lines but we still can share a road

You talk in thunderstorms I answer in code

If my heart can't form the sentences you need out loud tonight

Let my clumsy constant presence be the proof that I still fight

Stay beside my silence 'til I learn to say your name in light