The bodies, the bones, the seeds that I've sown

All of the moments I regret

The bottle of hurt, the pain I deserve

It's they bury me or I bury them

Bad, bad nights in my failed dreams

I like to keep 'em where I can't see

Maybe the things I'm avoiding don't really wanna destroy me

Maybe they're waiting for me

They say face your fears

But every time I do I cry tears

Every time I show up I show love

That's 'cause I sweep it under the rug

Avoidance, yeah, that's one hell of a drug

It's all smoke and mirrors

Yeah, I'm collecting scars like souvenirs

And every time I show up, I show love

That's 'cause I sweep it under the rug

Avoidance, yeah, that's one hell of a drug

My anger, my jeans that ripped at the seams

All of my long-lost high school friends

One step at a time, that's how I get by

Yeah, I'm running marathons in my head

Maybe the things I'm avoiding don't really want to destroy me

Maybe they're crying for me, crying for them

I keep running and running

I don't know who I'm becoming

I want to stop, but I don't know when

They say face your fears

But every time I do I cry tears

And every time I show up I show love

That's 'cause I sweep it under the rug

Avoidance, yeah, that's one hell of a drug

It's all smoke and mirrors

Yeah, I'm collecting scars like souvenirs

Every time I show up, I show love

That's 'cause I sweep it under the rug

Avoidance, yeah, that's one hell of a drug

Yeah, I'm neglecting therapy

I think I know what's best for me

'Cause if I open up the wound, I know I won't stop bleeding

Smiling through the roller-coaster

Highs and lows, I know I'm breathing

They say face your fears

But every time I do I cry tears

Every time I show up I show love

That's 'cause I sweep it under the rug

Avoidance, yeah, that's one hell of a drug

It's all smoke and mirrors

Yeah, I'm collecting scars like souvenirs

Every time I show up, I show love

That's 'cause I sweep it under the rug

Avoidance, yeah, that's one hell of a drug

Cry

At least not tonight

I try not to cry

At least not tonight

I try not to cry

At least not tonight

I try not to cry

At least not tonight

I try not to cry