I really don't know what I'm doing here

I really think I should've gone to bed tonight

But "Just one drink and there're some people to meet you

I think that you'll like them

I have to say we do

And I promise in less than an hour

We will honestly go"

"Now why don't I just get you another

While you just say hello

Yeah just say hello

Just say hello"

So I'm clutching it tight

Another glass in my hand

And my mouth and the smiles

Moving up as I stand up

Too close and too wide

And the smiles are too bright

And I breathe in too deep

And my head's getting light

But the air is getting heavier and it's closer

And I'm starting to sway

And the hands all on my shoulders don't have names

And won't go away

So here I go

Here I go again

Falling into strangers

And it's only just eleven

And I'm staring like a child

Until someone slips me heaven

And I take it on my knees

Just like a thousand times before

And I get transfixed

That fixed

And I'm just looking at the floor

Just looking at the floor

Yeah I look at the floor

And I'm starting to laugh

Like an animal in pain

I've got blood on my hands

I've got hands in my brain

And the first short retch

Leaves me gasping for more

And I stagger over screaming

On my way to the floor

And I'm back on my back

With the lights and the lies in my eyes

And the colour and the music's too loud

And my head's all the wrong size

So here I go

Here I go again

Yeah I laugh and I jump

And I sing and I laugh

And I dance and I laugh

And I laugh and I laugh

And I can't seem to think

Where this is

Who I am

Why I'm keeping this going

Keep pouring it out

Keep pouring it down

Keeping it going

And keep pouring it down

And the way the rain comes down hard

That's the way I feel inside

I can't take it anymore

This it I've become

This is it like I get

When my life's going numb

I just keep moving my mouth

I just keep moving my feet

I say I'm loving you to death

Like I'm losing my breath

And all the smiles that I wear

And all the games that I play

And all the drinks that I mix

And I drink until I'm sick

And all the faces I make

And all the shapes that I throw

And all the people I meet

And all the words that I know

Makes me sick to the heart

Oh I feel so tired

And the way the rain comes down hard

That's how I feel inside

The way the rain comes down hard

That's how I feel inside