Today Was Just a Downer

Giving everything to this

A job i cannot stand

A life i do not want

Fighting a war against myself

To find the strength to wake and make it through the day

I'd give my life if I could make the move to speak

Communicate but I can't

Silent gestures and quiet wars

A subtle language easily ignored

No one speaks it

I'd trade this all for something real

Manic erratic all too ecstatic

Oh how I'd be your nothing

With something to prove

Dull these thoughts with work again

The countless hours killing me

No escape from myself