I can't remember why I fucked up everything

And I hate December I sold our wedding ring

And I hate last summer I block out my memories

"and things can't get better if you don't want to change"

I can't remember why I fucked up everything

And I hate December I sold our wedding ring

The texts get shorter and messages take longer

I know I miss her but i didn't wrong her

I live in make believe

I see what I wanna see

I'm a fucked up junkie

I try at almost nothing

I fucked up everything

And I hate December I sold our wedding ring

And I hate last winter I wanted things to change

And I hate my mirror

I wonder what's happening