I still do it

I still do it

I still tell you things in my head

I still hear what you say back

That's the part nobody warned me about

You left and the conversation didn't

Yeah, deleted the pictures, kept the ones I forgot about

Found 'em in a folder, sat down on the floor

You had your hand up 'cause you hated when I took 'em

Now that's the only way I ever see your face

I don't miss the big stuff, I don't miss the trips

I miss you being annoyed at me for nothing

Miss you saying my name like it was a whole sentence

Miss the version of me that you were the only one who saw

I still tell you things in my head

I still hear what you say back

That's the part nobody warned me about

You left and the conversation didn't

Something happened Tuesday and I reached for the phone

Got halfway through typing it before I stopped

Sat there with it open, cursor blinking at me

Deleted it and told nobody at all

That's how I know it's back

I ain't sad in a big way

I'm sad in a way where nothing has a place to go

Whole life still coming in

And there's no one on the other end

Just me in a room and everything I didn't say

They say give it time

Time ain't doing nothing but making it quiet

I don't want it quiet

I want one more argument

I want one more nothing conversation

I want the version where you're still annoyed at me

I still tell you things in my head

I still hear what you say back

That's the part nobody warned me about

You left and the conversation didn't

Still telling you things

Still telling you things

Nobody's there