Watching you leave, pretending I'm not sad

Caring so much, yet I must step back

Knowing this love will become your burden

Forgive my helplessness, I let go to set you free

Keeping my distance, feigning I don't care

Afraid to hear your voice, lest my weakness shows

Can't give you a happy future, so I push you away

Let me bear all the bitterness alone

Actually I really want, really want to hold you back

Just don't have a reason to make you feel secure

Actually I really want, really want to have you

Helplessly reality turned everything into what we once had

Helplessly this world has too many, too many disappointments

No matter the effort, can't escape the pressure of life

Don't want you to waste any more of your youth on me

Drifting everywhere with me, living a hard life

Couldn't give you a reason for happiness

Have to helplessly let you go

Even loving you deeply, I'll keep it in my heart

Only hope you live a better life than me

Actually I really want, really want to hold you back

Just don't have a reason to make you feel secure

Actually I really want, really want to have you

Helplessly reality turned everything into what we once had

Keeping out of sight, masking how broken I am

Every time I think of you, I'm filled with guilt

Can only stay with loneliness alone in the dark

Locking all the regrets deep inside my heart

Actually I really want, really want to hold you back

Just don't have a reason to make you feel secure

Actually I really want, really want to have you

Helplessly reality turned everything into what we once had

Helplessly this world has too many, too many disappointments

No matter the effort, can't escape the pressure of life

Don't want you to waste any more of your youth on me

Drifting everywhere with me, living a hard life