Hate Me

I have to block out thoughts of you so I don't lose my head

They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed

Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I'm alone

Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home

There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain

An ounce of peace is all I want for you, will you never call again?

And never say that you loved me, just to put it in my face

And never try to reach me, it is I that wanted space

Hate me today

Hate me tomorrow

Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you

And I'm sober now for three whole months

It's one accomplishment that you helped me with

The one thing that always tore us apart

Is the one thing I won't touch again

In my sick way, I want to thank you

For holding my head up late at night

While I was busy waging wars on myself

You were trying to stop the fight

You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicide or hate

You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take

So I'll drive so far away that I never cross your mind

And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind

Hate me today

Hate me tomorrow

Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you

Hate me in ways, you know the way's hard to swallow

You gotta hate me so you, you can finally see what's good for you

And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave

I'm kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I made

And like a baby boy, I never knew how to be a man

Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hands

And then I fell down yelling "Make it go away

Could you please bring back her smile

Make it shine like it used to be?"

And that's when she whispered "How can you do this to me?"

Hate me today

Hate me tomorrow

Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you

Hate me in ways, you know the way's hard to swallow

You gotta hate me so you, you can finally

You can see what's good for you

For you

'Cause you know that this is all for you

Yeah, this is all for you