Yeah yeah, losing control, finding control

I'm like a run away train or a beast untamed

A mouth full of paraffin spitting in the flames

More than a few lines written on the grave

Man, I'm living on a page, still a victim to the rage

Psychological trigger pulled by the diabolical figure

I acknowledge the distance has grown

It's like my thoughts are my own sometimes when I zone

Ego is over blown, struggling to keep it all in check

What we need is more respect

On the same page we can all progress

But too many act like they're too big for that

Whipping that car out the lane and it it's getting back

The loss of control, now you're not the boss of your own life

You're trapped in a fight that you got to resolve

And then you climb back gradually

And find that clarity and lay back happily

These voices in my mind are here to whisper and I can't hide 'em

I try my best to fight them then I end up feeling violent

No it ain't my nature, so alone and zoning silence

Is it weed that made me like this or my mind just like this?

Stuck in solitude or sink into a tiny island

Resentment building up inside me like a deadly virus

While you end up being the one with who the pressure rising

Climbing up a wall through the webs of tiger spiders

Many legions of the empire and I can't provide it

Trying to keep my shutters balanced in the prime of life, man

Find it hard confiding, frozen face smiling with gloss eyes

Plucking the strings of a violin

Workload crushing like a truck flipping sideways

Drifting 'bout a that, I gotta flip the script, right the pain

I got to alleviate this migraine

I guess I got to live this life and ride it out the highway

Losing control, finding control

Your heart and your body, mind and your soul

Tryna keep a hold but my grip stays slipping

Meditate for a minute till my mind state lifts

Losing control, finding control

Your heart and your body, mind and your soul

Tryna keep a hold but my grip stays slipping

Meditate for a minute till my mind state lifts

Steady with the slip tryna to stay focused

But my mind takes a trip every time I take a sip

From ho to housewife from housewife to ho

It seems round in circles I go

The go go girls will get you go go so so mental

The only thing that soothes is another instrumental

If the chicken leaves a sour taste tell her, bring the menu

'Cause we can be civil and that's all I recommend you

I'm taking control or at least trying

And now just tryna make a difference and keep flying

Not just keep denying

It's much harder to lie to myself

That's why I'm kicking pirates off of this ship for no one else

Blame's a funny game, shame's another stain

Call my name into the tracks where I used to play

Change what I used to say like I used to stray

Lose or gain control gain or lose a day

Its been a minute since we spoke

I've been battling the demons in my head trying to cope

Was it the weed that I smoked, booze, acid, or the coke

Playing shows every weekend, they're coming home broke

But it ain't about the money, really do it for the love

Fans saying that I wish she wasn't so pissed off

When I'm playing unaware that my brain's decaying

Can't remember where I've been and my mind's relaying

Paranoid delusions with no real solutions

Running in the circles that my habits are choosing

Feel like I'm losing and there ain't no hope it seems

We're some a-get it from the words that I wrote

But we're in the same boat

Tryna juggle addiction, struggling with the truth

And it's time to quit them don't want to be the victim like the past

So show me you wanna change the day but it's happening slowly

Losing control, finding control

Your heart and your body, mind and your soul

Tryna keep a hold but my grip stays slipping

Meditate for a minute till my mind state lifts

Losing control, finding control

Your heart and your body, mind and your soul

Tryna keep a hold but my grip stays slipping

Meditate for a minute till my mind state lifts