No one knows the amount of pain I have inside my mind

It's constantly haunting me

I always act on second thoughts, and I can't hold my tongue

I'm afraid I'll suffocate on words we both know I'll never say

I made it out on my own!

All the things you wouldn't say, all the time you couldn't take,

it would've meant everything to me.

Always waiting for a breath, always trying to pretend

it didn't mean anything to me

I know you know we both wish we could do this over

All the things you didn't say, all the time you couldn't take,

it would've meant everything to me

The most frustrating, mind-breaking thing to think about is that

I've been taking and breaking apart everything I love, because

someone else wanted to see what makes a person's heart beat.

But I've come to accept that it was only a test

to build the bones in my chest.

Nobody said this would be easy. So dig deep, and just breathe.

All the things you wouldn't say, all the time you couldn't take,

it would've meant everything to me.

Always waiting for a breath, always trying to pretend

it didn't mean anything to me

I know you know we both wish we could do this over

All the things you didn't say, all the time you couldn't take,

it would've meant everything to me

I didn't have the space inside my head to let you in again,

but it's not like you tried.

I didn't have the time to argue about who was right or wrong again.

I just needed you to let me know to dig deep and just breathe.

All the things you wouldn't say, all the time you couldn't take,

it would've meant everything to me.

Always waiting for a breath, always trying to pretend

it didn't mean anything to me

I know you know we both wish we could do this over

All the things you didn't say, all the time you couldn't take,

it would've meant everything to me

How could I be so, so clueless?