Altruistic Lung

She’s so totally in love with me

But I am too much of a fucking coward

To be anything for her

Because I am too afraid to find something worthy of love in myself

And I am being smothered

Crushed by my own inabilities, insecurities, instability, crushed

And I am being smothered

Crushed by my own inabilities

And I’m afraid to move around her without calculated action

She just might figure out that I want nothing more than to love her back

And I do, I do

I want to feel that

The truth is that while she’s looking for ways to help calm the storm

In my chest

I’m looking for ways to keep her at the end of my

Outstretched arms

A welcoming sight indeed, but a trick nonetheless

A welcoming sight indeed, but a trick nonetheless

And I can’t, I can’t take this

This constant back and forth like waves crushing rock

And I am being crushed

She can’t see me the way I see myself

It will break her

It will....I will break me

And I am being smothered

Crushed by my own inabilities, insecurities, instability, crushed

And I am being smothered

Crushed by my own inabilities

And I wish, I wish I could live in another skin

Someone else’s maybe, but anything other than my own

Because it’s getting too tight

And desperation has me longing to leave this shell behind

LEAVE THIS SHELL BEHIND

(Leave this shell behind)

Shed it all and leave her here

With the image she and I created of me