Please excuse me for the way I act

So I've asked so many times

Drawing circles to show where I am

As if they lead me to divine

I know I like the idea of providence

So I force my head

Though I always spill my blood on the table

Though I like the idea of confidence

I'm in love with control

I'm in love with control

I'm in love with control

I'm in love with control

Please excuse me for the way I act

So I can't seem to recall

Too aware that's too many times

Is it okay I'd like to hold on?

Though I like the idea of permanence

I keep my mouth shut and only try to speak when I'm able

Though I like the idea of you sleeping next to me

I'm waiting just to watch you go

I'm in love with control

I'm in love with control

I'm in love with control

I'm in love with control

Though I like the idea of providence

I know I can't see straight with my head through the table

Though I like the idea of confidence

It couldn't like all that

You unraveled in my head

I'm in love with control

I'm in love with control

I'm in love with control

I'm in love with control

I'm in love with control

I'm in love with control

I'm in love with control