When I'm in bliss I'm longing for hell

It's like I'm hoping for misery inside of my head

It's all hanging by a thread

and I don't wanna be saved

I don't wanna be saved

These thoughts of a deathwish

I'm desperate but I'm terrified of feeling selfish

Inside I'm all alone

Love, you embraced me, but still I feel so empty

And I

I feel it in my bones I just loose control

And I

I feel it in my soul I just can't let go

It gets the best of me

when my mind get's stuck in spinning circles

It gets so hard to reach the reality I'm grasping for

I'm a mess

I'm a beautiful mess

Been a fellow friend with my demons for so long

Worn a mask, it doesn't fit at all

I made myself believe that I'm here for something

A stranger to the real world

Let me remain the unknown

Let me remain the unknown

And I

I feel it in my bones I just loose control

And I

I feel it in my soul I just can't let go

It gets the best of me

when my mind get's stuck in spinning circles

It gets so hard to reach the reality I'm grasping for

For so long, hell's been feeling like my home

For so long, I've been speaking for other tongues

For so long, hell's been feeling like my home

For so long, I've been speaking for other tongues

But I dont wanna be saved

And I

I feel it in my bones I just loose control

And I

I feel it in my soul I just can't let go

It gets the best of me

when my mind get's stuck in spinning circles

It gets so hard to reach the reality I'm grasping for