Calm Down

I'm angry all the time Don't wanna be like this anymore Bad thoughts, I'm scaring myself Just like before I take some pills Try to breathe Just to calm down I freak out all the time Live in my own personal hell My subprime real state Is priced to sail I wash my face Take a drink Just to calm down It's hard on you Hard on me I don't like the way I am Not how I wanna be Can you see it in my face? Hear it when I speak? And I'm trying to get back And I don't want To let you down Need a second to collect myself Not trying to be rude Reevalute my addled mind 'Cause I'm about to come unglued Unhappy all the time Delving too deep inside my head And I can't help but hate The time I wasted And I lay back down Try to sleep I can't calm down It's hard on you Hard on me I don't like the way I am Not how I wanna be Can you see it in my face? Hear it when I speak? And I'm trying to get back And I don't want To let you down