Dreaming, escaping, I’m falling to the sadness all on my own

Trying to run but I’m losing

Devouring the pills on my own

My feelings blurred like colors, dancing through a kaleidoscope

Fading memories in a hue of melancholy, were I happy or were I trapped?

It’s hard to walk the same paths again and again, same patched road, same fucking mistakes, same old conversation, “are you ok?” “I’ll be fine” “it’s all right”

Like the horizon at the ocean, still and calm, time passes, it waits for no man, I am afraid to die

My feelings blurred like colors, dancing through a kaleidoscope

Fading memories in a hue of melancholy, am I dead or am I alive?