As far back as I can remember

The failure was always there

It was the only real companion that I have ever had

Not meant to live like this

Consciousness is nothing more than a vicious cycle

And I am being bled dry by my conviction

I've spent my life trying to find my confidence

And found absolutely nothing

Life is a lost cause

Too weak to carry on

I wish I'd never met who I once was

Not meant to live like this

Pursuing the love in all that I have lost

But I have left myself neglected

Deserted from the start

Longing for a chance to wander

A chance to chase my aspiration

When you're devoid of feeling

You just do as you're told

Hatred is exhausting

But it's all I'll ever know