Disconnected

When you get a taste Of the life you crave But the bed you made Starts feeling like a hearse It's a fitting curse That the dream you chase Just leaves you feeling worse The writing gets painful 'Cause you built this from the dirt And the songs you're playing Over and over never seem to work When you're falling short Try to build it up And let the feeling ride I never held so hard onto the Things that keep me grounded 'Cause I've gotten used to running away You said it wouldn't be easy And I didn't believe you Now I see firsthand why I feel disconnected With an empty room And a 15 hour drive We're living city to city I'll be gone 'til June While my loved ones pass me by I always thought I was ready Well I tried So fucking hard But letting go is Never what it takes To break the spell of giving In to what you think of me The writing, it gets painful When you're asking me to stay 'Cause the song keeps Playing over and over Begging me I never held so hard onto the Things that keep me grounded 'Cause I've gotten used to running away You said it wouldn't be easy And I didn't believe you Now I see firsthand why I feel disconnected Your heart says warm Decembers But I'm still stuck in May How can i be there for you When I'm here for me? I never held so hard onto the Things that keep me grounded 'Cause I've gotten used to running away You said it wouldn't be easy And I didn't believe you Now I see firsthand why I feel disconnected