I can only speak on matters of my own heart

The world I know will disappear

Have I done enough to warrant this life

Is it all enough for them

Will I look back and see I was a failure

A disappointing waste

I hope you see with all my heart I truly care

I push and pull searching for every answer

Playing a game I can never win

I pour everything I have in this life

But it seems its never enough

They deserve the world

but I fall short every single time

Everyday I fight with this thought

God I hope I don't fuck this up

I constantly battle this misconception

That everything I do is not enough

I know I do my best and try to do what's right

But this feeling haunts me every fucking day

I lay awake at night

Tossing and turning from recurring nightmares

Why cant I see that this thought of self doubt is tearing me apart

There's no give and take

nothing in between

I hope I don't let them down

When I die

And 6 feet in the ground

Will this have been enough for you