I feel I've journeyed enough

I been on this road of self discovery for years still I lust

I've learned a lot of how displaced is my motivation to bust

I've learned my source of validation is engraved in my wants

There's still that discontentment

Like you've held out on me

And maybe I'm complaining to much about it but It ain't me that they want

The more I walk the less is clear but I see more of my faults

What's the cause I think depression comes from my lack of arrival

Who would have thought

With a degree I'd prefer backpack survival

My wife's the grace that I needed keeping me taking to reason

And taking baby steps even though I'd barely take to believing

In singleness I used to think all this waiting was reaching

But that time alone was needed to prepare my soul for this season

God I know what embrace the process means

A shift of focus from honing all of my skill to blow up and feeling hopeless

To releasing control of my need to know and finding your joy moment to moment

Lord I'm thankful for what you're showing me

And finally when we talk I feel you know it's me

I'm still insecure and I'm not sure that I'm worth the progression you've bought

But at least I know I'm not alone

Thank you for blessing our walk

The Process is the goal

And God it's you that I want

The Process is the goal

And God it's you that I want

The Process is the goal

So I must embrace it

It's been a long road road

Embrace the Process

I've struggled so long

Embrace the Process

It's been a long road road

Embrace the Process

I've struggled so long

Embrace the Process

It's been a long road road

Embrace the Process

I've struggled so long

Embrace the Process

It's been a long road road

It's been a long

I've struggle so

Embrace the Process

It's easy to get hung up about what I don't have

Deliverance from insecurities

To the lack of vocab to grow past

Acknowledgment to acceptance of the hand I've been dealt

Thinking about the rejection

Not knowing the feelings I felt

I want to be able to see it in spades and take what can help

But you tryna give me the heart to give up what would make us a mill(ion)

All the aggression, anger, resentment

Towards the sperm donor who chose to leave

Could have been harnessed to produce 3 Marshall Mathers LP's

I don't want to believe I am as broken as he

In a sense I'm no different,

Just wanna make a living sowing a seed

Lord help me move to giving back from the life that you done birthed

Cultivating what's planted I used to think was so much work

But God you showing me my laziness is really so much hurt

Imploded and manifested into self hatred

Then I compensate by wanting to be self made it's

The reason I get depressed

I feel stuck then I get stressed

So I strive and strive so I don't end up in a ditch

Then I get to comparing my life to others and I wanna dip

I'm glad you want me

But the shrapnel of abandonment still haunts me

I know that you want me

But God

Why didn't they want me?

I'm glad you want me

But God

Why didn't they want me

Why didn't they want me?

Father I'm

Glad that you want me

I'm glad that you want me

I'm glad that you want me

I'm glad that you're my Father

And that you want me

Help me to Embrace this Process

I've struggled so long long

My God

Embrace

My God is my Home

Embrace

My God is my Home My Safe Place

Embrace the Process

My God is my HomeMy Safe Place

In the Process