Popular Monster

Yeah

I wake up every morning with my head up in a daze

I'm not sure if I should say this, fuck, I'll say it anyway

Everybody tries to tell me that I'm goin' through a phase

I don't know if it's a phase, I just wanna feel okay, yeah

I battle with depression, but the question still remains

Is this post-traumatic stressin' or am I suppressin' rage?

And my doctor tries to tell me that I'm going through a phase

Yeah, it's not a fuckin' phase, I just wanna feel okay

Okay, yeah, I struggle with this bullshit every day

And it's probably 'cause my demons simultaneously rage

And it obliterates me, disintegrates me

Annihilates me

'Cause I'm about to break down

I'm searchin' for a way out

I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer

I'm a popular, popular monster

I break down

Falling into love now

With falling apart

I'm a popular, popular monster

I think I'm going nowhere like a rat trapped in a maze

Every wall that I knock down is just a wall that I'll replace

I'm in a race against myself, I try to keep a steady pace

How the fuck will I escape if I never close my case?

Oh my God, I keep on stressin', every second that I waste

Is another second sooner to a blessing I won't take

But my therapist will tell me that I'm going through a stage

Yeah, it's not a fucking stage, I just wanna feel okay

Okay, motherfucker, now you got my attention

I need to change a couple things 'cause somethin' is missing

And what if I were to lie? Tell you everything is fine

Every single fucking day, I get closer to the grave

I am terrified, I fell asleep at the wheel again

Crashed my car just to feel again

It obliterates me, disintegrates me

Annihilates me

'Cause I'm about to break down

I'm searchin' for a way out

I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer

I'm a popular, popular monster

I break down

Falling into love now

With falling apart

I'm a popular, popular fucking monster, yeah

Yeah, here we go again, motherfucker, oh

We're sick and tired of wondering

Praying to a god that you don't believe

You're searching for the truth in the lost and found

So the question I ask is, "Yeah, where the fuck is your god now?"

'Cause I'm about to break down

I'm searchin' for a way out

I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer

I'm a popular, popular monster

I break down

Falling into love now

With falling apart

I'm a popular, popular monster

I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer

I'm a popular, popular monster