As I fill these pages

I feel compelled to tell the world you rehabilitated

Dawg, you really made it?

I watched you change all your ways and all your affiliations

No drugs to take to escape, but you say you feel amazing

And I admire that 'cause I just copped a fire pack

The only thing I know to bring them lyrics that inspire back

I missed them songs where **** rap the entire track

I miss my dawgs ridin' 'Lacs 'til the tires flat

Laughing should be natural, I'm tired of always tryin' to laugh

And tired of being tired, my eyes packin' designer bags

But if you ask if I'm alright, I'll say I'm gucci

I done slept too many nights inside a hoopty

To be trippin' 'cause I think I should be as big as Lil Uzi

Got so high yesterday, today I'm still woozy

Hope I don't end up alone from being too choosy

But I don't want nobody else to know me like you knew me

And it's hard to get readjusted when who you needed to trust it

Treat all your feelings like, "Fuck it," and throw 'em into the dirt

My heart on the sleeve of my shirt, so I know you see that I'm hurt

But I always get cut the deepest by people I need the worst

So whoever's gotten close is who I be watching the most

I just wan' go ghost on a private flight to the coast

To a place where nobody knows, thanks for waiting on my growth

And I'm starting to get along with the man I face in the mirror

And I just tripled my whole fanbase in a year

I need a key to my city, a handshake with the mayor

I was just at IHOP serving pancakes to my peers

It's crazy how shit changes

They all said young Calen couldn't get famous

But last night I hit the stage and a bitch fainted

And pulled off in a whip that I just painted

I think I made it, mama

When it's showtime, I'm the Lakers in the '80s, mama

Prayin' I don't turn my lastest lady to a baby mama

'Cause she ungrateful when I spend all of my paper on her

Someone tell Zendaya that I'm waiting on her

I need something more euphoric

Something that make me forget everything I've known before it

I'm tired of lookin' back, from here on out, it's only forward, yeah

Before I go away, I'll go to war, yeah

And it's hard to be reunited when someone you once confided

Takes what you told 'em in private and starts to use it against you

I wipe my tears with a tissue, it's hard for me to continue

But I always feel most outed by the people I'm most into

So whoever's gotten close is who I be watching the most

I just wan' go ghost on a private flight to the coast

To a place where nobody knows, thanks for waiting on my growth