Yeah

A lot of things on my mind, man

Uuh

So this a message to all of my fans

Yes, I got some questions it's all in advance

Why is life depressing? Then suddenly ends

It seems I fake a smile so I can feel like a man

Because I'm trapped inside my mind

Of who I am and who I choose to be

Now I just abuse the weed

To hide from what I truly see

I looked inside my mirror

Hoping God would help me see myself

But only seen my demons screaming out

That I should free myself

I'm feeling lost feeling lonely on this twisted road

I'll fake a smile so that my parents and my sister know

That I'm alright, I'm okay, I been doing good

So don't worry I'll be fine like you knew I would

My mom will tell me that I'm great and that she's proud of me

My dad will brag to all his friends that he can count on me

The pressures here it's building up now its surrounding me

I'm scared to let them down 'cuz if I do will they look down on me

See that's a question that a broken soul would ask itself

Like, why the fuck am I alive, man? I should blast myself

I'm writing music to forget I can't distract myself

From every fucking thought I think it's time I try to ask for help

So this a message to all of my fans

Yes I got some questions it's all in advance

Why is life depressing? Then suddenly ends

It seems I fake a smile so I can feel like a man, yeah

So this a message to all of my fans

Yes I got some questions it's all in advance

Why is life depressing? Then suddenly ends

It seems I fake a smile so I can feel like a man

Shit this ain't normal, I don't know what I should fucking do

I paid my dues but still ain't figure out my fucking truth

I feel alone but I got every single one of you

I think I take that shit for granted dog and I ain't wanting to

But shit happens, in such a quick fashion

The road twists so fast and then my whip crashes

Except the whip is not my car its all my sick passions

And the roads the world around me tryna get at them

God, you a sick bastard

For putting me through the ropes

At 13 I seen my uncle with a tube in his throat

I watched my cousins lose a father slowly losing their hope

Then asked the preacher why and he said

"Only you could've known"

So tell me

Why'd you do it

Man, I need you to say

To put my mind more at ease with all the shit you display

I know I'm not supposed to question you, but damnit, I prayed

And it seems like you don't care about a thing that I say

So this a message to all of my fans

Yes, I got some questions it's all in advance

Why is life depressing? Then suddenly ends

It seems I fake a smile so I can feel like a man, yeah

So this a message to all of my fans

Yes, I got some questions it's all in advance

Why is life depressing? Then suddenly ends

It seems I fake a smile so I can feel like a man

So this a message to all of my fans

Yes, I got some questions it's all in advance

Why is life depressing? Then suddenly ends

It seems I fake a smile so I can feel like a man