Crxrxd/All My Life

Life of American alcoholics Searchin' for the bill that has fallen out of his wallet Steal a Steel Reserve, submerge it within his pocket Kill it on the curb and submerge up within his conscious He, made it up the stairs, grabs the keys and he's fumblin' The forty-sippin', finally hit him, now the man is stumblin' Mumblin' and bumblin' he shuffles into loving sheets And falls asleep Drunken dreams, his sheets to keep him company Pass out, vomit Wake up, vomit Shower Then he go to work Clock a twelve And then he delve Right back to Hell Away from Earth Swervin' his suburban Off some, bourbon he had purchased Person with no purpose Figured life, ain't ever perfect Measures life, if it's worth it Whether he should pull the curtain He been stompin' on the ice and he just finally broke the surface, woah An old soul at crossroad, he's conflicted And all his afflictions synonymous with addiction Yeah, and he standin' at a crossroad Another life, another lost soul And he too proud to ask for help He in a, battle with himself He figured everybody'd lost hope Tired of the strife And how he fightin' all the time And how these vices rule his life but He tryin' But ain't nobody listenin' And ain't no way to fight it He been silenced by addiction Runnin' stop signs like there's no tomorrow Stars align inside a forty bottle Need a shot to feel functional Hit the bar to feel comfortable Like his mind is stuck in drive That mean there's no reversin' Reverse the mind See through his eyes And he's a different person, and personally Burnin' all his bridges in the worst way Waitin' on a bottle Bottoms up, he always thirsty See the pain it'll finish you Pour a cup, drank, in a swimmin' pool It don't matter what he drinkin' Any liquor, anything that'll get him through See his, problems is minuscule But his problems is all he do He only keep it a hundred when he drinkin' a hundred proof Provin' the point As we point out his flaws He point out the fact That he could be on points of the raw So what's the point of it all Canceled appointments, withdraws Hit a fifth after he walked out The point is across Yeah, and he standin' at a crossroad Another life, another lost soul And he too proud to ask for help He in a, battle with himself He figured everybody lost hope Tired of the strife And how he fightin' all the time And how these vices rule his life but He tryin' But ain't nobody listenin' And ain't no way to fight it He been silenced by addiction See I'm tryin', but ain't nobody listenin' I've been Callin' for awhile, but can't nobody hear me And honestly, I've been on autopilot for some miles I've been lookin' my whole life for a reason not to drown You think I don't want your advice Like I wanna have these vices Pops was an alcoholic, I'ma be just like him See I, got some demons And they, ain't gon' let up And I Know how to make it worse more than I can make it better, hey Been looking for all my life Been looking for all my life, oh Been looking for all my life Been looking for all my life, oh I was Raised in a place where the pain never fade And my day's all grey, I ain't never had grace I ain't never been saved, woah Wonder why I don't have faith My father hit the bottle and yo, it don't take a genius To follow, I'm the product of an alcoholic's genes, yeah Whatchu know about love, whatchu know about growing up no hugs You don't know about Pops, wakin' up hittin' shots, throwin' up till there's blood on the rug I tried to run from all my problems, ended on the same road Tried to choose a different path, but yo this route is all I know, woah Been looking for all my life My whole life I been searchin' for a purpose If it's worth it, but I don't know if it's workin' Been looking for all my life, oh Know I gotta problem, and I Really wanna solve it I know it starts with the bottle, woah Been looking for all my life I know I got a higher callin' I'm so tired, always fallin' I'm accustomed to the bottom, hey Been looking for all my life, oh I feel my time about to wind down So I'ma change my life and go to try to put this All my life Been looking for all my life, oh Been looking for all my life Been looking for all my life, oh Been looking for all my life Been looking for all my life, oh Been looking for all my life I Been looking for all my life, oh