This Way (Say I Love You) [feat. Aniyah Smith]

We can't all feel like you

That's all I'm tryna say

If tonight is the last night you plan on breathing

If the weight of the world is so heavy on your shoulders

The only place you see to lay down this burden is a grave

If you are so tired of existence, you want to put yourself into an eternal rest

I'm sorry I couldn't make this life more livable for you

I too have known nights on bathroom floors with blood and tears spilling so quickly

I'm not sure which one I'll run out of first

Know praying to gods I stopped believing in a long time ago

That if they were real they would help me

Know looking death in the face and inviting him home for dinner

Like a long lost friend I couldn't wait to get reacquainted with

But I've also known salvation

Know that if the words of your demons can end your life

Then words of hope can save it no matter how deep of a hole you've dug yourself into

Even when holding on to life feels like grasping for air your lungs can't even keep inside of them

Reach your hand out for a lifeline

Because I am still standing after depression has brought me to my knees

After I've asked God more times to end my life than I have thanked Him for giving me it

And ain't that a blessing?

To survive

Even when your own body has tried to kill you

And it gets hard sometimes because I can't even remember how to be a person

But being a poet isn't always about pretty prose

Some days, it is just about being alive

Most days, it is just about being alive here

In this place where I have seen so many resurrected, I call it holy

This is survival, this is hope, this is life

So tonight, don't you write me a suicide note

Write me a survivor's story

God, please stay ready for me

It's the word to the wise if they ready for me

Got the world in my eyes, they look ready to me

All the girls and the guys, they look ready to see

How can I say I love You?

How can I say I love You today?

How can I say I love You?

How can I say I love You this way?

Can I say I love You?

How can I say I love You today?

How can I say I love You?

How can I say I love You?

Can I say I love You?

Can I say I love You today?

How can I say I love You?

Can I say I love You this way?

Say I love You

Say I love You today

Yah, can I say I love You?

Can I say I love You this way?

Spirit come

Can you feel The Spirit come?

Can you feel The Spirit come?

Can you feel The Spirit come?

Of joy

Of joy

Yah, please stay ready for me

It's a word to the wise if they ready for me

Got the world in my eyes, they look ready to me

All the girls and the guys, they look ready to see