Pity Party

I hate the mall I hate the public I hate the sun My eyes are burning I hate my friends I don't deserve them I hate their love No, I'm not worthy I hate their love I'm suffocating Build my own casket Cover the casing I love my mom But she's too perfect I hate the fact I'm always hurting I wanna hide I am a burden I wanna hide I am a burden I hated school I kept on flunking Maybe I'm stupid Maybe I'm learning I tried I tried I can't be what you want me to be I tried I tried I can't be what you want me to be I like the hospital They understand me there They cuffed my hands tight Police car took me there I made some new friends I heard some stories I know I'm not a failure At least I'm growing Where am I going I'm on my own path Atleast I'm growing I'll be my own man Soon All this guilt Inside my brain It's gonna kill me Trynna feel alright My pain, it wont leave me I've been blessed and cursed At birth with my feelings All the shit I hate The shit is the real me Got my little brother here He's just like me You can try again with him Please don't hate me no no I tried I tried I can't be what you want me to be I tried I tried I can't be what you want me to be I tried I tried I can't be what you want me to be I tried I tried (You have to make the right choice)