You're Not Alone

Just let me down Don't let me down gently Just let me down Don't let me down gently I feel so alone these days Lost myself along this way If it gets worse, then I might need change Does anybody out there feel the same? I just wanna go back to the world I was livin' in Back when I wasn't focused on the money or the dividends Back when life was so simple, but right now I been drownin' Yeah, my circle gets smaller with every comma Had to cut off some people, don't want the drama All the snakes in my path, and they're so dishonest Tried to give 'em a plate, but they're in my pockets I don't want this I don't want this life Sometimes, I want off this ride Sometimes, I don't even wanna try Sometimes, I'm Searchin' for answers that I'll never get Like why was it so hard to try to exist? Why was it better when I was a kid? When I saw traumas I'd try to forget Man, I was 13 when I saw my mom get choked out Called 911, then I broke down Got too much pain, never wrote down Let it built 'till that breakdown backstage in London Hard to predict when the pain is comin' Push it all down 'til I can not stomach it Cannot run from it, down 'till everything hurts I don't wanna think that it might get worse 'Cause if it gets worse I don't know what'll happen I might end up hurtin' me 'til my pulse flattens Until then, I'm focused on all of my passions, I'm losin' my way Lost in my mind now I don't know, but my head hurts I'm not gettin' better I'm not changin' Drownin' in the deep end Voices callin', I can see them I've been drownin' in the deep end Voices callin', I can see them Anxiety ridden That's how I been livin' Distract myself, that's why I been driven I don't wanna think about the things that make me weak Down this rabbit hole 'til I can leave Down until my brain feels obsolete Wish I didn't view the world so bleak Always wear my issues on my sleeves, like You think that you're on the right path 'til One thing goes wrong and your vision goes black Your body goes numb, and you think on the past You think on your life and when things all went bad It follows no matter the place Changin' location, just picks up the pace Thought it'd be safe when I sold out a stage That's when the demons caught up to the race Grip me by the neck, and then pulled me back down again Seein' childhood traumas that I relive I was half asleep at like 12 a.m. Sister's ex-boyfriend breakin' in He beat up my sister, I wanted to murder him But I was too young to be hurtin' him That's not rage any child should feel That's not pain that ever does heal Lost, and I'm losin my mental I'm thinkin' this life is another cruel riddle That I'll never solve Dealin' with issues that I can't resolve When things lookin' up, I just wait for the fall Scared that it's holdin' me back Wanna move on, but I'm chained to the past This prison depression, I'm on the attack That's why I been stuck in this trap, yeah Don't wanna complain, but I never wanna step foot on stage Every time I do, I relive pain 'Cause I got sad songs so ingrained I relive all of my scars and how I got 'em It's revealin' me Relive all the worst parts of my life, and it's been killin' me Lost in my mind now I don't know, but my head hurts I'm not gettin' better I'm not changin' Drownin' in the deep end Voices callin', I can see them I've been drownin' in the deep end Voices callin', I can see them Drownin' in the deep end Voices callin', I can see them I've been drownin' in the deep end Voices callin', I can see them Just let me down Don't let me down gently Just let me down Don't let me down gently