I'm Not Okay

Tonight, the monsters in my head are screaming so damn loud

But I built walls so high, so they never even make a sound

It's a mask, it's a lie, it's the only home I've ever known

'Cause being who I really am has only left me more alone

I am not okay

And I need you to see it

I have so much to say

And no one to hear it

The reason I keep quiet with so much at stake

I always feel like a burden, let it silence me

You'll never understand why it's so hard to say

I'm not okay

I wish I had a scar, had a bruise on the surface, any kind of proof

That everything I feel is more than just some sad excuse

My life's invisible abuse, I'm either judged or have to hide

The only symptom you can see is I don't wanna be alive

I am not okay

And I need you to see it

I have so much to say

And no one to hear it

The reason I keep quiet with so much at stake

I always feel like a burden, let it silence me

You'll never understand why it's so hard to say

I'll never have the words, I can't explain this hell

But what if it kills me if I keep it to myself?

To myself

I am not okay

And I need you to see it

I have so much to say

And no one to hear it

I'm not okay, I'm not okay

I'm never safe, it's not a phase

If I finally break, would you still stay?

Tonight, the monsters in my head are screaming so damn loud