Handzum $Uicide

Deranged from the blood stains all over my brain

Just another day, this killer train is ridin' down your way

I'm fucking starting to unthread, these voices that's in my head

I got a romance with the dead, and sleeping in river beds, uh

Damaging my organs, to me, they just ain't important

I'm a different kind of breed, the one that don't even breathe

The one you ain't gotta feed, just rob and take what I need

Fucking product of the $uicide, fucking spawn of Satan

Cuttin' on my wrist, while these women fornicating

I'm debating to take my life

Forsaken by sacrifice

Mistaken for something nice

Pile of ashes is my final form

Got a roll of duct tape, and a rag soaked in chloroform

Flies swarm because my body's warm, shatter the urn

See me blowing in the wind like a scattered storm

Grey matter splattered in front of the corner store

Saw that when I was fourteen, walking around the 2nd Ward

Send him to the seventh floor

Ended up with floor seats to something I didn't want to see

Now that scene is in my head every time I go to sleep

When I dream, I rest in peace knowing I'll be dead

Earth will be my final bed

Poison me with lead, inject it into my fucking head

Pressure, pressure

How do I dear deal with all this pressure?

In my way

It’s in my lungs

It’s in my thoughts

It’s in my brain

A guilty conscience some might say, I’m paranoid and locked away

A withering weed in the garden that God wasn't supposed to save

Locked up in an open grave

Reading King James' Bible

With a couple quotes erased, but kept the ones that made me smile

Do I really see everything for what it is?

Or is it that I can’t see anything with such a bad case of denial

When I die, then put my body in a boat

And light it on fire, push me out to sea

And let the wind do what I might've

No matter whatever I feel about anything

It wasn’t until I burned all my bridges

It made my future brighter