Leafing Through a Dictionary (First Version)

Leafing through a dictionary tryna find my name like

I'm missing any concept of permanence

Playing old games stuck in my own mindspace

Just like I played old games on MySpace

I'm an OG, looking for a way to see a past life

I earn my spot myself and I'm not looking for a new type

Writing my own page and staying up all night

Just to get a little glimpse into what I modified

Alright, let me show you what I been through

Caught a lot of hatred from myself for my own view

Knew my purview was too blue to be true

So I reviewed to try to keep what I knew in my view

Adieu! Negativity never holding me back now

Whatever I had been to me was folding, its face down

But whether societal pressure to educate

Or maybe a psychical inkling to meditate

On my own inner being, it's mental my state

I'm crying out loud and remembering graves

The people before me who stood for what I do

Were dying in vain as I wasted this redo

This is the legacy, this a new avenue

This is the life and the death of another view

But till my last breath I take pride in no strife

These worldly events mean nothing to mine

Leafing through a dictionary tryna find my name like

I don't really wanna see my fate

But I'll face it head on, like a bull, I'll rage

And just hope I don't lose out in the exchange

But I'm stubborn

I'mma keep at it for a minute though

Try to build an image that'll take the bad and overgrow

Try to make a self that'll work it like a dynamo

And maybe eventually reach a final dream of radio