I can't fucking stand to be myself anymore

This fucking life I chose tears me to the core

It makes me fucking sick but it's what I deserve

I wanna fucking dull every single nerve

Communication had a breakdown in the skies

That held your voice but didn't fight the lunar eyes

If all was well then why the hell couldn't I see

The heat death of your light stopped the fading breeze

If I could fall again

Where was I when I fell then

We were awake and wanted to take a stroll

To watch the sunrise

Never again will I ever lose control

It wasn't fucking fine, it never could've been

That smile perforated underneath my skin

The siren's dulcet song rang within my ear

The void is bleeding once again after a year

I wanna rip my fucking eyes out of my face

Put in a new pair so I see all my mistakes

All of the colors that combined inside my head

Start bleeding out from my fractured skull instead

If I could fall again

Where was I when I fell then

We were awake and wanted to take a stroll

To watch the sunrise

Never again will I ever lose control

I wish I'd seen her

While she was crying

The grass was greener

While mine was dying

I am a nightmare

That's tied to something

That lost its meaning

That fateful morning

No warmth in silence

It's darkened nothing

The cold unending

Regret is building

The time is coming

I've lost all meaning

The time is coming

The time is coming

The silence is not warm

It's cold and unending