Now this one for the pain that I felt over the years

This shit ain't been the same ever since **** was little

Be too much on my brain, make me wanna shed a tear

I be trippin, reminiscin' but I'm thankful I'm still here

And I'm so misunderstood, this that real soldier shit

I never thought I'd see the day where I could go legit

I was just on a stroll with my cuzzo tryna flip

Sell an O in thirty minutes, he said, "You need more than this"

'Cause we swangin

Better have your fire, I got my fire, this shit get dangerous

I won't tell no lie, before I die, I go out bangin'

Just tryna survive but this the life of a gangsta-a-a-a-a

It be hard to believe that I made it this far

Made it when it was raining, boy, that shit done left me scarred

Often reminiscin' 'bout Deja, that shit hurt me to my heart

Know it drove my Auntie crazy 'cause she died right in her arms

And I made it to the funeral but wishing that I didn't

I been dreaming about that casket ever since I seen her in it

I ain't tryna see no casket, I ain't tryna see no sinners

My bitch don't understand me and family in they feelings

They say I might win a Grammy, fuck a Grammy, I need a million

It hurt me that I hurt ya, can't believe the way I did ya

I really thought that we'd be married, move away and have some children

And I can't even explain it, that shit be crazy

And I'm so misunderstood if I could, then I would

But I don't get it, I admit it

Pain that I'm feeling, make me wanna cry sometimes, oh, whoa

It make me wanna cry sometimes, yeah

And I'm so misunderstood, if I could, then I would

But I don't get it, I admit it

While reminiscing, it make me cry sometimes, oh, whoa

Lord knows I cry sometimes