A Waking Contradiction

I'm sleeping I'm restless I'm breathing And breathless I'm willing Unable Drifting Unstable I'm after And I'm before A sore loser And good sport I'm owned by this feeling like I'm climbing the ceiling My strength is my weakness! I'm strong enough to see this! My moods swing I daydream I'm selective But I'm listening I seem To be Cold, turned-off completely My actions deceiving My insides how I'm feeling Force me out Just let me be I need you now You don't need me I am confused Your symmetry One day I'll Find Why You'd Need Mine I'm sleeping I'm restless I'm careful But reckless Complacent Conceited Divided Defeated I'm blue skies And hail storm A warm invite And a get-gone I own my ambitions But lost all my convictions My strength is my weakness! I'm strong enough to see this! My moods swing I daydream I'm selective But I'm listening I seem To be Cold, turned-off completely My actions deceiving My insides how I'm feeling Force me out Just let me be I need you now You don't need me I am confused Your symmetry One day I'll Find Why! You'd! Need! Mine! Somewhere beneath This indiscreet behavior Lies a story to unfold It scares me most That I don't know Where my villains hide How capable of a lie And if I'd rather be denied Mine! Force me out Just let me be I need you now You don't need me I am confused Your symmetry One day I'll Find