Feels like the world's waiting and I'm still debating

Whether or not I'm really worthy of the shit I'm chasing

Live in a house of mirrors feeling fearful of escaping

See dark reflections in the water of these different faces

They all belong to me they judging me in every way

And say that I won't amount to nothing without motivation

Look for serenity in everything that I'm creating

But I'm making ripples in water and they're too abrasive

In every line I write I'm searching for gratification

I used to get it every verse but it's slowly fading

Now I'm lucky if I get it every three tracks

Some people say I should relax but I ain't complacent

You should take a step back bro like just be patient

Success ain't going nowhere it don't take a vacation

But they don't hear what I hear they don't see what I see in front of me

A hall of mirrors and a wall of hatred

Screaming

Every crack, every crevice

Every flaw, every blemish

We reflect it, yeah

We reflect it, yeah

On every scar we squeeze lemons

And know your heart is so selfish

Everything you try to hide we reflect it

Nothing will ever be enough, accept it

Pools of water, I swim harder

Against the current but the current's only getting stronger

And I'm fighting myself but know that I never falter

Every corner of my mind is only getting darker

Cuz nothing ever seems to cut it guess I ain't a barber

I'm trying to grow myself up but I ain't a farmer

Been trying to ball but don't feel good enough to be a starter

This pen cuts like a sword but it could still be sharper, shit

Drowning in mirrors I can't see the surface

No matter where I go I'm insecure and always nervous

Cuz everything I see turns into a reflective surface

Always comparisons it's this or that it's always me versus the world

I fight back with verses, and know that I rap with purpose

To build me up, to be assertive

Chasing success as compensation for the ways I'm hurting

I used to know my purpose, but now I'm not so certain

Chasing a dream but it's feeling more like a burden

Like do I really want this shit or am I only nursing

All of the scars that I left on myself?

Another rhyme hits the page, is it good for my health?

Cuz my mind's in a cage, it's all in a cell

And everyone who's ever hurt me blame it all on myself

I hope I still have the key cuz it's all my perception but I never seem to get past my own reflection

Screaming

Every crack, every crevice

Every flaw, every blemish

We reflect it, yeah

We reflect it, yeah

On every scar we squeeze lemons

And know your heart is so selfish

Everything you try to hide we reflect it

Nothing will ever be enough, accept it

Every crack, every crevice

Every flaw, every blemish

We reflect it, yeah

We reflect it, yeah

On every scar we squeeze lemons

And know your heart is so selfish

Everything you try to hide we reflect it

Nothing will ever be enough, accept it

Reach out, touch darkness

Scream out, catharsis

No luck, just hardness

Fucked up, I'm heartless

No joy, departed

Want love but, I'm heartsick

Want change but, we starless

So can't wish can't change that's honest

Won't go, I promise

But this feeling, feels chronic

Wish I was so flawless

Still wish that I was modest

Neglected, forgotten

Still waiting but I'm lost

And I can't find solace

Save me, save me

Iso

Lation

My own

Making

Push everyone

Away and

Keep grinding

Keep pacing

Fuck bullshit

Time wasting

Thoughts brewing

Mind racing

Can't do it

I'm faking

I'm a let-down

Disgracing

Everyone I know

All over

Family and friends

Don't notice

That I miss them

And I hate me

So hard just to see this face in the mirror

I'm waiting

Cuz I love you

I just wish I

Felt the same way

Feels like I lost everyone

I don't know who to

Talk to so I just

Stay alone and

Reach out, touch darkness

Scream out, catharsis

No luck, just hardness

Fucked up, I'm heartless

No joy, departed

Want love but, I'm heartsick

Want change but, we starless

So can't wish can't change that's honest

Won't go, I promise

But this feeling, feels chronic

Wish I was so flawless

Still wish that I was modest

Neglected, forgotten

Still waiting but I'm lost

And I can't find solace

Save me, save me