Still Here

Who are you when nobody watching Too often I find myself lost in my head I ain't really open to Talking bout all of my problems I'd probably wind up just popping These drugs in my hand I'm walkin these streets on my own If you spotted me honestly Go on and leave me alone I can not tell you what I want but I know It lies further than this place That we call a home I'd rather keep wondering on and on Until all of a sudden I pause and I break What matters is hundreds of others Keep holding on to setting suns That's shit that I hate Going outside Don't wanna go for ride Don't want to open the blinds Just don't wanna think about trying Cause every time I try I end up just lying in bed awake Wishing for better days Don't wanna medicate This ADHD keep fucking with me And I see it just ain't the same Closing my eyes Why would I even wanna try Tell mom I'm gone Don't wanna die Know I'd feel better inside Now I'm alone Loneliness kills Still Can not stand being alone But I love how it feels Real Maybe thats all that I want To stop takin these pills Still Don't think I ever gon' stop To be a lost cause Promises cause scars The kind that you know That are never gon' heal Don't think about me Forgetting everything You thought that I was Nobody listening This is just part of the reason That I don't mind taking these drugs Don't wait round no more Feel like your killing me slow Say that you're breaking it off Don't understand what it cost Taken my life and my soul In love with the money But I know that shit is something I don't need Hunits and hunits keep piling all on me Know that they probably Circling back for me Dump out the back on me Tell all brothers I'm coming home Who are you when nobody watching Too often I find myself lost in my head I ain't really open to Talking bout all of my problems I'd probably wind up just popping These drugs in my hand I'm walkin these streets on my own If you spotted me honestly Go on and leave me alone I can not tell you what I want but I know It lies further than this place That we call a home I'd rather keep wondering on and on Until all of a sudden I pause and I break What matters is hundreds of others Keep holding on to setting suns That's shit that I hate Going outside Don't wanna go for ride Don't want to open the blinds Just don't wanna think about trying Cause every time I try I end up just lying in bed awake Wishing for better days Don't wanna medicate This ADHD keep fucking with me And I see it just ain't the same Closing my eyes Why would I even wanna try Tell mom I'm gone Don't wanna die Know I'd feel better inside Now I'm alone