Lies

I live my life believing lies I cannot help but fantasize Filling up my head With temporary pleasures I don't seem to care Maybe I'm not in love with you, I'm in love with the idea Head been out of tune, why I haven't sounded clear Don't like to admit, cuz I really got a fear that If I say the truth, you'll move on and disappear What has my life become, holding on to fantasies This is my kingdom come, burning down in front of me Can we just keep dancing, blocking out the music I don't want to mess it up, don't want to lose it Playing with mind, so oblivious To the fact that you're with someone, there will never be an us Whole world is falling, I don't know what to choose Happy with the lies, or be sad with the truth I live my life believing lies I cannot help but fantasize Filling up my head With temporary pleasures I don't seem to care Never good with letting go, never had a lot of friends Growing up, I felt alone, why I cannot make it end Tryna make everybody stay, in my life, it's dominant Learned that nothing lasts forever, hurts but that's what it is Sugar coat the raw, so it's sweet when I be tasting Heavy in my heart, crack a smile I be faking Never nothing wrong, tell myself that I'm amazing End of it all, I'm not really what I make it Out to be I've been empty inside Can it be that there's more in this life Godspeed to the friends I tried Reality, I give in, it's time I live my life believing lies I cannot help but fantasize Filling up my head With temporary pleasures I don't seem to care