4 AM, staring at the ceiling

And I lay awake with all these feelings

Took another blast, took another drag

And I feel okay, wavin' this white flag

Call me a fool

Cuz I surrender

Yet in my eyes you're still a jewel

Even when you got me on a choke hold

Imma still hold on, even tho its killing me

Look at me, I'm a fraud

An empty vessel

Give me time, cuz I'm flawed

I'm nothing special

Thinking back

On what you said

I never really thought you'd go and turn your back

When these stars shine down on us

I can see, you weren't really there

But that's something you don't needa discuss

I'll be fine on my own

I been doing it alone

Now I lie in this empty bed

Contemplating everything you said

With a heavy feeling of dread

I tryta sleep, but look its

4 AM, staring at the ceiling

And I lay awake with all these feelings

Took another blast, took another drag

And I feel okay, wavin this white flag

Call me a fool

Cuz I surrender

Yet in my eyes you're still a jewel

Even when you got me on a choke hold

Imma still hold on, even tho its killing me

Look at me, replaying these stories in my head

I don't wanna say this, but I'd rather be dead

I've given it my all

I've got nothing to give

Struggles and hardships

Making it hard to live

Call me a fool

Cuz I surrender

Yet in my eyes, you're still a jewel

An everlasting poison

With no antidote

Love you like an oleander

Hopefully it ends me