I got numb to pain

I don't feel the same

I've been on the wrong side a long time here

They tell me that I changed

Like I should be ashamed

But I've been on the wrong side a long time

I got numb to pain

I don't feel the same

I've been on the wrong side a long time here

They tell me that I changed

Like I should be ashamed

But I've been on the wrong side a long time

I think it's way too easy for these people now to kick you while you down

Feel like I'm always struggling to keep both of my feet on solid ground

So now I'm putting up a shield

Don't give a flying fuck about how they feel

The pain that's in my chest is all that's real

I never did learn how to deal with my anxiety, I try to keep it chill

But it still keeps popping up against my will

So they got me medicated

Had to up my doses to the max

It's hard to hear your brain is broken, full of cracks

I was totally unstable, never known to hold it back

And they held that shit against me and I can't get over that

So when they look me in my eyes now and they say that I look deader than before

I just shrug a fucking shoulder and start heading towards the door

Man, that used to piss me off, then we would get into a war

But I don't let it fuck my head up or get to me anymore

I got numb to pain

I don't feel the same

I've been on the wrong side a long time here

They tell me that I changed

Like I should be ashamed

But I've been on the wrong side a long time

I got numb to pain

I don't feel the same

I've been on the wrong side a long time here

They tell me that I changed

Like I should be ashamed

But I've been on the wrong side a long time

I think it's way too easy for these people now to kick you while you down

Feel like I'm always struggling to keep both of my feet on solid ground

Feel like I finally found my gravity

Now I'm okay when people start attacking me

It don't have the same effect it used to have on me

I just let it go

And that's all 'cause it was happening so often that my soul has formed a callous now reactively

I don't miss being snap-happy or having everyone mad at me

I'm glad that we figured it out so now they can't throw it back at me

Still some people keep backtracking, I can't control that

But I hope that they know that

No matter how much that they hold that against me that I won't ever go back

I've been on the wrong side for a long time and I own that

That was all me and that's on me but I've grown fast

So at long last I can walk past

That negative talk and won't even talk back

I got numb to pain

I don't feel the same

I've been on the wrong side a long time here

They tell me that I changed

Like I should be ashamed

But I've been on the wrong side a long time

I got numb to pain

I don't feel the same

I've been on the wrong side a long time here

They tell me that I changed

Like I should be ashamed

But I've been on the wrong side a long time