Happy Instead

I've been pacing this room for forty hours

Crawling up the walls and trying not to call

And I saw you walking in a supermarket aisle

I didn't say a word 'cause you had the biggest smile

And I've been thinking of you in the morning times

You woke me up so soft that I forgot the world ain't kind

I pull you in and you kissed me through a grin

And you'd say you missed me when you were busy sleeping

But what if I said happy instead

Is the way that I reckon it should be

And if you called you'd say that you're okay

And I'd be wishin' I was dead

'Cause you're happy instead

Happy instead

And I've been dreaming of the life we would've had

Happy at times but mostly just mad

Maybe it'd worked out, maybe it'd been fine

But every day your smile ain't showing, seems a waste of time

So what if I said happy instead

Is the way that I reckon it should be

And if you call you'd say that you're okay

And I'd be wishing I was dead

'Cause you're happy instead

Happy instead

It's been ten years, I haven't called you once

When you called last night and my child up and jumped

He asked who you were and you did the same

Handed me the phone and I couldn't recall your name

What if I said happy instead

Is the way that I reckon I should be

And if you call you'll hear that I was okay

And you'd be wishin' you was dead

'Cause I'm happy instead

Happy instead

Oh, I'm happy instead

Happy instead

What if I said happy instead

Is the way that I reckon I should be

And if you called you'd hear that I'm okay

And you'd be wishin' you was dead

'Cause I'm happy instead