Pressure

Build you up easy and watch as You crash to the floor (Can't take anymore) Buried in dirt, kicked in the face A poisoned rat is never meant to win the race You start to panic and you're feeling the weight When your light embraces shadows of your chemical state You're feeling frantic and You can't take the pace Of a life less lived slowly slipping away Don't try to tell me that, this was meant for me Convince me happiness is only a daydream There's no coming back, this pressure's killing me Keep tossing anchors just to see if I'll sink And there's no light house, and there's no true north There's only dark skies coming but I've been here before Don't try to tell me that This was meant for me Cause I've been down for too long My biggest fear is ill realize I never lived (Just get and give) My family's just faces in frames I know their faces but can't remember names When they think of me will they think of what should have been When all my emotions come pouring out of a pen? And it's a shame now The clock keeps ticking on this breakdown My body's battered by the days the weeks And years that I Earned the scars I tried to hide But I'm awake now! Because there's so much more at stake now! And I won't be a passenger in life like I was before No more denying what I'm living for"