Nothing in Particular

I'd never want to make you feel I'm haunted By what I have to do to keep you well But ghosts of who I was come back to taunt me I used to be more carefree than now Getaways don't feel the same I'm wondering if you're ok I wish I wasn't worried all the time Even when I need my space I feel so guilty I keep thinking one day you'll be gone And I'll give anything to have a Day with you walking in the world Doing nothing in particular We'll lay in the sun I'll watch you laugh It's my favorite way you're still yourself I'd give anything to have a day With you walking in the world Doing nothing in particular We'll lay in the sun I'll watch you laugh It's my favorite way you're still yourself I'd never want to make you feel I'm haunted By what I have to do to keep you well But ghosts of who I was come back to taunt me I used to be more carefree than now I'm managing to manage you alright but I keep feeling like I'm missing out On both sides of the coin, I'm caught between my Want to be with you and as myself