I think I get what that Kanye song means

If I put my hand on a stove, will I bleed?

If I cut again, can I even go deep?

Picking away at the body beneath

Grounding by naming five things I can see

Five things I can hear, five things I can touch

Can tasting the back of my tongue be enough?

Yeah, with my luck, you'll tell me

I'm so beautiful, so beautiful

You've got front row seats to the dream

To scream my name back at me, pretend

I'm in control, I'm in control

All eyes on me, on me, on me, on

Five more steps, five fingers around my neck

Five down and one 'til I'm dead

Five counts and I'm catching my breath, yeah

Five more steps, five fingers around my neck

Five down and one 'til I'm dead

Five counts and I'm catching my breath, yeah

Sometimes I think I'm on top of the world

But I'm missing their words when they're talking to me

Fucked up the details, everything they told me

I thought their birthday was the 17th

And I don't know why I just act like I have so much energy

When I don't even get sleep

My words just compress out my mouth now, it's hurting to breath

It's hard to accept you're relying on me

I'm burning this bridge, it's not holding up

My patience ran thin, yeah I called your bluff

I bottled my feelings the day you left

Yeah I tried to be cool, I'm not cold enough

It would be funny if I ran into you on a corner, street, or party

If I'm just telling you the truth

My heart already broke before it started

I'm so beautiful, so beautiful

You've got front row seats to the dream

To scream my name back at me, pretend

I'm in control, I'm in control

All eyes on me, on me, on me, on

Five more steps, five fingers around my neck

Five down and one 'til I'm dead

Five counts and I'm catching my breath, yeah

Five more steps, five fingers around my neck

Five down and one 'til I'm dead

Five counts and I'm catching my breath, yeah

Five more steps, five fingers around my neck

Five down and one 'til I'm dead

Five counts and I'm catching my breath, yeah

Five more steps, five fingers around my neck

Five down and one 'til I'm dead

Five counts and I'm catching my breath, yeah

Five more steps, five fingers around my neck

Five down and one 'til I'm dead

Five counts and I'm catching my breath, yeah

Five more steps, five fingers around my neck

Five down and one 'til I'm dead

Five counts and I'm catching my breath, yeah